Some words from Pang

Sooo this is my first post on this blog. I am trying to think of what I can write about. But needless to say there is ALWAYS something to say!

Like my sis Savinu has already mentioned... I have kind of sort of come out of a shell after this damn break-up. I feel like I need to be out all the time, otherwise I sit in my room thinking too much and although it's nothing terrible going through my head, sometimes I can't bear. I am so used to thinking ahead and planning my future and I really don't have the answers to much of anything now a days. I am just kind of going with the flow. It's not easy!!! It takes so much effort for me to just let things be... ugh! At 26 I always thought I would have my life sorted out and completely put together. Let me tell you--- that is NOT the case... It kinda freaks me out sometimes!

The bond between a group of girls is something else. I am re-learning that now. I have always had my gurls, but never shared secrets or deep thoughts with my crew (my sisters, my friends, my family, my sorors). I always had my man for that. He was great at keeping "secrets" and being neutral. I could tell him ANYTHING, even about "us". I know girls can be petty and sensitive (me included), so I always felt like I had to protect my business from too much criticism and opinions. Now that shyt is ALLLL out the window. I kind of feel vulnerable and completely liberated! How ironic is that?! But hey, that's life I say... Sometimes I feel completely out of my element. Like me telling this dude (1TRAIN) the things I've told him. Or me telling my sisters that I want to do him so bad :0x

Anyways... our "Girls Night Out" drinking events have always been good, there is great conversation and too many laughs and everything in between. I can only imagine they will get better from here on out :0)



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My 2 cents on the CINCO gurls....



My sis 'Savinu'-growing up we have almost never been on the same page. Not just with our personal lives, but with almost everything. Seriously. Some things just don't change. I have just learned to let her live her life the way she feels she needs to. I don't understand her and I don't try to. Some people just aren't so easy decipher. She is one of them. You see her one way and then get to know her a little more and the real person comes out. We always say she is JUST like my dad and that's why they don't get along too well. In any case, we are both adults. Although I don't agree with most of her ways, it's really none of my business to tell another person how to live their life- including my sis. So I just stay out of it if it doesn't particularly pertain to me. It seems to be working lol

After this break up, she just so happens to be around most of the time and is conveniently available to me when I want to brag about kissing boys or any "extra" information. She has been then one to witness this new change in me and also snap some sense into the naive single girl I can be. Gosh, this is NOT easy!!! I hate playing games. I am too honest for all that shyt. Once you start lying, you have to keep lying to cover up the last lie. I can't bother to keep up... Anyways, she has been there- especially when I need a night out on the town... Needless to say we've been hanging out A LOT more recently :0)



My lil' sis (pick a name!!!)- We have always been close. I don't remember a time we never got along. She is my heart. I feel like a role model to her. I am definitely play the 'big sister' role with her. We don't talk too much about personal stuff (ie: boys), but the bond is totally there. When I lived in Ohio she would visit me pretty often and cook and clean for me. I used to call her my little housewife lol. I would come home from work to great home cooked meals. I am talking about fancy shyt. Yum! She's good in the kitchen. Me, not so much. But ummmm, yea... she is 20 and not so much a little girl anymore. I think I will always call her my little sister, even when I am 60 lol. She is much more mature than other 20 year olds I know. She knows what she wants in life and is very level headed. I am curious to see what this blog will be like for her... (que puya! lol)



SassyDaisy - She's my sister's friend and my other "single" buddy. We are kind of going through the motions of this dating thing. We share our funny boy stories, and those not so funny ones. This dating thing takes some getting used to man! She is a mom, but on the weekend's she ours! lol



My cuzzo "SON"-(for now) When it comes to family, we do everything together. We celebrate events together, we go on family vacations together, we go to the park together, we go to Atlantic City weekend getaways together... you get the idea. So we kind of grew up together, and we deff get a lot of dancing out of our systems together. Ever since we were 14 years old going to "Teen Parties" at Copa. We haven't stopped clubbin' together since then lol. Oh yea, she did mention that I have become more "fun" since the break-up. I guess by default I've just been more available and been hanging out a lot more... the best thing---> SHE LIKES BEER JUST AS MUCH AS I DO! I can count on SON to enjoy a drink with me ANYTIME. She is also a very funny drunk. So needless to say she is great to have around lol...



That's my side of the story and I'm stickin' to it bythces!


-Pang