He loves me, he loves me not

UGH...

I don't know what to do with myself...

Here goes my side of the story.

My boyfriend (?) and I went through something in September- something that made me call off the engagement and go back to my moms house. Out of respect to the lurking boyfriend lol, I will not write what the problem was. Any who... I went back to my mothers house and left the ring at the apartment him and I share. Yeah yeah it might sound fucked up but the original fight was not the only reason why I left the ring behind. Anyone who knows my family and has been to my house knows that there is a black hole in that apartment. I'm not kidding. Things dissappear there and NEVER show up again. Ever. I was not about to loose that ring and never see it again. I wasn't going to wear it either- that ring is a conversation starter and I really didn't want to talk about my engagement or my used to be fiance.

After two weeks of this- I came back to our home, we spoke, worked out our problem and decided the wedding was still on! That happened in September- its about the be Christmas and I STILL DONT HAVE MY ENGAGEMENT RING! WTF??? He keeps saying he wants to ask me again but seriously- 3 months? Here I am asking my parents for wedding payment money and I still don't have my engagement ring. He tells me to keep planning the wedding but never asks me to marry him again. I realllly think this is unfair. If we both decided (mainly him) that the wedding was still on and we are still booking and making payments then why the helll have you not asked me yet? I keep giving people the run around that my ring is getting fixed but people aren't stupid, it doesn't take 3 months to fix a ring.