Family Matters

Long time no write…Well here it goes (I need to vent)…

We all have family situation, but here is mine: I have 2 blood sisters and 3 stepsiblings. My sister Mother is just a year younger than I but acts like my mother that’s why I call her ‘mother’ and then my youngest sis Bootylisious is just that, all over her and only her.

Bootylisious pretends to care only about her and only her, fine by me I’ll act the same, so we barely cross words if not necessary bc although SassyDaisy is nice SassyDaisy got spunk on her (don’t mess w/SassyDaisy) lol

Mother my issue w/she is infinite, she always criticizing me from the way I ground my son HBK (Heart Break Kid) to the food I have in my fridge. I always just let it go bc I feel bad that I might hurt her, she’s very sensitive you see…so I just keep quiet…

Buuut this past Sunday I got tired. I was very at peace w/HBK entire day to have them come in and start arguing so I snapped very subtle none of the less held my self back a lot. Here how the convo went:

Mother: Aqui nunca hay jugos bueno (there is never good juice here)
SassyDaisy: then buy it for me
Mother: you have to buy it, it’s your house
SassyDaisy: exactly, I’ll remember to have to good juice for you
Mother: not even water
SassyDaisy: Don’t drink it
Mother: you never have good juice
SassyDaisy: neither do you
Mother: yes we do
SassyDaisy: right your man makes sure you don’t buy brand name juice and your bad ice tea
Mother: that’s not the point, we buy better juices
Sassy daisy: ok, you’re better than me, all of you are…

I was doing rolos for La Dona (my actual mother) and she defended her saying how ‘nobody cant tell me anything’ I snapped at her too, nicely though she can still Fuck me up if she wants too lol, ‘you are always telling me something, but when I say something I’m being mean, it needs to stop’ that’s was the end of it..

Sounds stupid but its annoying that I can not even buy what I like in my house. I was mad, but then 5 minutes later I’m doing her hair too..lol. I don’t keep grudges, not good for my soul!!

Has anyone felt like you are never good enough, like you never earn enough, like you never do anything right?? Although, all you’ve done in your life is being the top of your class; the one that actually graduated college; the one that’s achieving her masters; the one that pays her own bills and don’t have to ask La Dona for bailout on credit cards like some of my siblings have…have you??

BC I feel like I’m the only one…that’s why I have come to the conclusion many years ago that I will create my own world for HBK and I…and it has worked so far… maybe that’s why I haven’t let a man really really in my heart…


-SassyDaisy

P.S. I never do her rolos well neither…La Dona didn’t forget to mention that at the end!