Obama said I can

Great day, glorious day for America.

Obama is in office...

GO BARACK

And I am feeling good.

The situation at home is okay- still not great... but yesterday I finally felt at ease, no anxiety.

I am okay now with whatever happens, if things with the boyfriend don't work out I am okay with that. I guess I am hitting the selfish phase where it is all about me right now. I realized I DESERVE BETTER then what I have been going through. I took the time yesterday to finally stop worrying -and just do me.

I started by answering back to anyone who has hit me up. "You want to chill?" YES!
My friend the president (he was president of his school for two terms and is very much into politics- the man is good at what he does) has been asking me to hang out on a weekly basis, I have been telling him no. I made plans to hang out with him in a group before I depart.

Inspector (a guy I used to work with) who lives in D.C. has been asking me to go out to D.C. I am rallying up my girls and we will be road tripping it to Washington D.C. The president will actually be there for a few months as well so we will get to hang with him while we are there.

I have a friend who we will call Shrek (when I met him 6 years ago he told me his name was Shrek- suiting, the guy is big *muscular*... every since then I have called him Shrek). Last night I got on AOL for the first time in months and Shrek hit me up. He asked me how the wedding plans were coming along and I broke the news to him that the boyfriend had called the wedding off and that things at home were a little rough. He gave me a very inspirational talk, it was definitely uplifting. He knows me and knows that a good laugh can cure me, or at least distract me... yesterday and today he has been talking to me about everything BUT trouble in paradise. I mentioned it and his response "we'll discuss that another time. I just want you to enjoy your day, get your mind off of that". YES! I love my friends.

I also have a friend who we will call Fitness (he is a personal trainer and looks like he was a cast member of the movie 300), who has been asking me to go get a cup of coffee with him to just catch up and shoot the shit. I have been not paying attention every time he asks- I would say "I will let you know"... well tomorrow Fitness and I are getting coffee! or whatever it is, we are meeting up on West 4.

So hooray for me. I am very happy for myself right now. I am not in the perfect place- I know but I feel a lot better, and a lot more at ease. Whether this goes left, right, up, or down I am okay. I have no regrets- I feel a little liberated.